Posted by Rjlockhart on October 24, 2006, at 19:27:34
In reply to Re: Hell just hit, posted by Phillipa on October 23, 2006, at 23:19:25
I have been in depression very bad, its like something PTSD happened, images of it haunt my me.
I belived so hard in God to do this, and it didnt come through.
And NO i was not on dexedrine at night, i took it during the day. It just made it hard to sleep. My mom noticed that. I took it, as prescribed and my mother saw that because she counted them. But then i made a even horrid, this is the thing that has made me feel i been through a tragedy. I went to her closet and tried to get it back, she walked in the door and saw me with her closet open. I HAD a breakdown, 2 of them to be exact. One for doing what bad thing i had did, but it was my prescription and had my name on it but there is nothing i can do. My mom is going to the doctor and telling him not to prescribe this to him, i dont know if this will go on my record.
Listen i took it as prescribed, in the past maybe i did take more than what i was, but i made a mistake, i just made another mistake by going back to the doctor with out my mother knowing, which know i feel miserable.
I'm in the computer lab right now trying to write a paper, i cant even get started, im so freaking wrecked over what happened. I'm wreck, screwed, i feel almost tormented mentally i cant function!
Should i have another personality help to come out and emerge to help me, yes im at the point of spliting personalites this is so diastering to me. I know this might not sound a big deal to some people, but it is to me because i was going to use it for a presentation, and to help me focus in class, and now look, i'm just slamed.
Now i have just focus back what im doing. If i fail, i fail, but i want to move out if that occurs because my mother will listen ever to what i have to say, she said she rather me be out of school than be on medication.
I admit i have done alot that she has a right to be the way she is, but even before she still had a very stuborn personality, not compromising. Yelled, screamed she doesnt know how to cope with stress.
I dont know, i just know i just wrote a long post and i hope that someone responds.
How am i going to cope without being medicated?
poster:Rjlockhart
thread:697094
URL: http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/20061020/msgs/697459.html