Posted by gabbie on September 28, 2006, at 6:35:43
In reply to Anyone had success on Effexor XR? , posted by jp on October 24, 1999, at 14:59:14
Ah. I am calling the doctor today to see I can get in today or sometime this weekend. I get nervous every time I go to talk to him about my anxiety. I havn't had to in a while, but I can't take this. I get really freaked out because I constantly scare myself into thinking I shouldn't use medication (which leads me to believe maybe I need it), but I have some questions that I am going to ask him and I thought I would ask you guys first. I do not have HORRIBLE depression or anxiety. I mean my head gets very twisted up and my chest gets tight occasionally and some days I cry badly over something so small and for the most part, everday, everything dumb or that isn't my business or that maybe I don't even really care about, but my head makes me think I do, I get really pissed off. Just for no reason. And not to seem like I am a loner, but other than my boyfriend... I don't really hang out with people. My two best friends who have been there for me through this all both go to college, and one has college and a job so I hardly see them. I go out once in a while, but that's when I force myself that people will actually like me. I think I am just getting deeper into insecurity. I mean I am secure for the most part, but I can't seem to let that sink into my head. I can't let anything positive sink into my brain. I get confused a lot... one minute I will say something and I KNOW that is how I feel about something, but I scare myself and second think it and then tell myself that isn't how I feel. And that it's this long process of getting worried that I'm going crazy. It sounds bad, but I mean I have been handling it for two years... it's just I can't take pretending that eventually it's just gonna go away. I have been wanting to go back to therapy, because talking to someone and having them tell me EXACTLY what the hell is going on, makes me understand and feel more safe and content. That's all I want... to be content. But reading some of these posts scares the sh*t out of me. I mean I DO NOT want to keep changing medications, I mean if this doesn't work, maybe I'll try something else, but if that doesn't... straight to therapy again unless my head stops freaking out. And I also get freaked out because I make myself think that what everyone is writing, is going to happen to me. Even though I KNOW I alread have taken it before for a month and two weeks and the only side affect I had was yawning and losing weight, and I believe I still felt nervous (and that i really would like to go away because i always feel nervous). But I'm hoping this all passes and it kicks in, but I am fearing maybe I am not qualafied to be on medication... it seems everyone else REALLY has the depression sever and the anxiety the same... so maybe because mine seems minor compared to everyone else... I should just shut up.
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