Posted by river1924 on September 24, 2006, at 2:32:46
In reply to i can explain, posted by nickguy on September 21, 2006, at 23:52:55
> Sure it's obvious that when you are in one state (depressed) for a while and go to another all of the sudden (not depressed) you would feel somewhat lost and not like yourself. But that's different. I'm certainly not without depression. I guess the point is that any kind of happiness I feel tends to feel somewhat fake, and the depression feels much more real. When I try to reach for joy it just doesn't feel genuine at all.
Hi,
I've never gotten rid of my depression: I'm either in intense psychic suicidal pain, muddle headed, irritable, okay, frustrated, angry, bored, sleepy, functional, etc...
The few times it has lessened a lot, I'd try to hold on to it and, at that point, I'd feel artificial. But I don't really recall being happy (even as a kid.) I don't think I understand your experience.
I wish I could. I'd like to be helpful or empathetic. River.
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