Posted by Phillipa on September 21, 2006, at 20:36:15
In reply to Re: Tonight I don't feel that antidepressants work » Phillipa, posted by SLS on September 20, 2006, at 23:43:46
Scott thanks. So crying is okay? I have a lifetime of things to grieve that I used my defense mechanisms to cover up til they failed. Guess they were overworked. To answer the questions I remember yes the anxiety is usually there in the form of bordom or not wanting to be alone. I did take a big step for me today and pick up a libarary book. I only read in bed before sleep with Greg. It's kind of relaxing. And I had lasix on my eyes and that was for distance and don't bring glasses with me. I concentrate on things I like. And no I'm not suicidal afraid of aging and dying. And not able to do the things I used to do like run because of disc problems. It seems like the older I get everything leads to more medical problems. I promised myself I would never get sick as my Mother was sick my whole life and I mothered myself. I've tried various social workers as therapists but they don't want to look at the past. Only at what's ahead. But my problems are in my past. I'm so lonely and really don't want real life friends they scare me don't know why. Thanks for caring. Love Jan see I rush out of here as soon as I can to get to Greg and my perception of safety as soon as I can. Not many social workers take medicaire but medical services are fine.
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