Posted by jparsell82 on September 18, 2006, at 12:40:51
In reply to Re: What kind of cognitive/mental issue is this?? » jparsell82, posted by SLS on September 18, 2006, at 6:55:34
> Hi Josh.
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> How old are you?*I just turned 24.
> How old were you when you first developed any kind of mood or concentration issue? Can you be specific what you experienced?
*Well, I'm not too sure when they developed... it was a gradual thing I think. Social anxiety has been a lifelong thing. I remember having some minor problems with my reading when I was younger. I could read all the words fine and I was one of the best spellers but I frequently had to read sentences multiple times because I would try to read them too fast and lose track of the words. I still do that today, but for some reason, when I was younger I could better overcome my difficulties and was never thought to have any learning problems. I was nearly an all A student in elementary, then A,B occassional C in junior high, and then B,C,D occassional A in high school. I was usually very good at tests and Science and Math used to be my best subjects. I missed many, many days of school and frequently got partial credit on homework.
I had some depression issues when I was in high school and occassionally from time to time today. The depression isn't an all the time thing... but pretty much everything else is. I'm very sensitive to criticism, also, I seem to soak up anything negative. I'm very intuitive... if someone's in a bad mood I easily get put in a bad mood. I have trouble ignoring things.
> Is there a history of bipolar disorder in your family? Other?
*Not that I know of. There's definitely depression and anxiety issues on both sides of my family but I don't believe or don't know if any of them seek help. My mom has in the past for depression/anxiety.
When I look at the definition of akathisia... that is kind of what I feel like most of the time. I'm very restless, inside and out. When things get real bad(a few times), it's very hard to think straight and I get paranoid and avoid social contact. I've never had any hallucinations though.
Anyways, it's very hard for me to explain my problems. I've always been very poor at explaining things. Hope this helped a little. Thanks for the replies.
Josh
> - Scott
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> > I have major cognitive issues. I have memory problems, problems focusing, learning problems, and I lose my thoughts frequently. I can't seem to retain anything I read/hear/watch for very long. I've been diagnosed with ADD and taken ADD online tests that show I have ADD. Adderall doesn't seem to help much. In fact, it seems like I lose my thoughts easier with it. Such as... I'm writing a paper and thinking of what to write and how to word my sentence and during all this thinking I lose track of it and forget what I had in mind. This happens all the time with various things, not just writing. I space out frequently. With everything I just seem to feel a constant pressure, whether it be reading, writing, talking, listening. I have to have a silent room with just myself in it and have a comfortable seat just to be able to try to concentrate... and it still doesn't go all that well. It seems like I constantly have this inner energy going all the time, I'm also extremely impatient, hypersensitive, etc. I can never calmly have a conversation, read, learn, write, work, etc. I always feel pressured and can't concentrate or focus on the task at hand. I have no desire/drive/discipline/motivation to do anything involving any kind of work.
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> > As I said, Adderall doesn't seem to help much. SSRIs I absolutely couldn't stand... they made me more spacey and disconnected, they also made it hard to concentrate. Anti-psychotics didn't help any... Zyprexa just knocked me out and I got Akathisia from Seroquel and various doses of Abilify. Klonopin game me major memory issues plus no drive or motivation to do anything.
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> > Is there anything out there that could help me calmly focus on what's in front of me? Whether it be talking & listening to someone or writing/reading or working? Something that could calm my impatience and restlessness and allow me to think with less pressure? Something that doesn't cause other cognitive issues? I post here once in a great while... I wish I could be of more help to others on this site but I'm having so much trouble dealing with myself. I feel that if somehow I could fix this cluster of problems that I've tried to explain here, I could more easily overcome my Social Anxiety and other things.
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> > Thanks,
> > Josh
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