Posted by fuchsia on September 3, 2006, at 0:33:36
In reply to Re: Majority feel more depressed in the morning » SLS, posted by linkadge on September 2, 2006, at 15:11:16
> For several weeks, I have been completely free from work, school, or any major responsability. When I wake up, I am not filled with anxiety at all, but rather I feel like I am dying, or perhaps already dead. Its a strange sadness that is hard to explain, feelings of life and how beautiful and precious it is, but that I just can't have it. Feelings like life is passing me by. Everything seems meaningless.
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> Perhaps its common, I don't know, but the emotions are impossalbe to process. Very strong, but impossable to process.
>I also had a sensation of feeling like I was dying or dead. It was the worst when I was withdrawing from diazepam.
It was so so strong; if I hadn't read that people with depression could have this delusion then I would have thought it might be true that I was dead. Part of me knew it must be a brain state while the other part of me was experiencing being dead or being a ghost.
I was visiting my parents and I really felt sad that I was on the 'other side' as one might call it. They were alive and I was a wraith; it was strange that they could even see me.
I wonder if that is psychotic depression? It couldn't be if one part of you knows you aren't really dead, could it? I never even believed in ghosts but maybe I do now.
fuchsia
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