Posted by mattye on August 29, 2006, at 12:37:12
Hi- I'm currently being treated for depression (the agitated kind) and anxiety. I started with remeron, which wasn't helping much so another doc added on lexapro. Well, the lexapro initially aggrivated my anxiety, but then I guess it helped a little. Unfortunately, all SSRIs are essentially chemical castration to me, which wouldn't be so bad if I weren't in a loving relationship right now. I went off the lexapro, and the doc put me on wellbutrin, and so far this is day 3 at 150 mg with not much change. So right now I am at 60 mg of remeron and 150 mg wellbutrin.
My depression has subsided, but I find the anxiety difficult to live with. I feel like the volume in my head is just turned up too high and I want to quiet it down a notch. I manage to hide the panic attacks from other people, but inside I am terrified. I am tired of living my life in fear.
I think I would do well on Klonopin, but the problem is that I am a recovering opiate addict. No doc in their right mind would give me a benzo. I used heroin and pain pills to self-medicate my symptoms. Due to a recent binge on percosets, the doc is putting me on naltrexone to control the cravings and to prevent me from getting high. I haven't started taking it yet.
Is there anything I can do? I don't mean to sound whiny or anything, but some days are real rough. My heart races, and my chest gets tight. When I am feeling so anxious, sometimes the only thing I look forward to is taking some pain pills on the weekend. Argggh!
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