Posted by willyee on August 29, 2006, at 0:27:36
I have no idea where im at right now.
I feel more under control,yet at the same time i feel like im runnng on jet fuel.
How do i go from not wanting to leave my room,to not paying attention to my fish when hes sick,and almost died.How do i go from loving to see my bird to barly playing with him,like i said i notice im not feeling better,but im handling things better,i guess thats one way to put it,im indulging in a lot of compulsive behaviour like the internet for example,talking to my friends,they are real people lol,but still on the net and far away,but im spending hours doing that,and rushing through chores i know i have to do,i think im in some kinda of maniac state now.
A mixed one,i feel im missing just a nudge to slow down this inner motor,but i have a benzo im using,and a mood stablizer,i dont know what else to do to stablize this inner energy its too much.
poster:willyee
thread:681071
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