Posted by JerryPharmStudent on August 25, 2006, at 3:03:53
Hey everyone. I haven't been around much I know. But - things aren't going well for me and I don't see them ever getting any better than this. I wish I was one of those people who responds great to an antidepressant and has complet remission of symptoms. But I'm not. I've been chuggin along now for 15 years in incredible pain - lost all my friends. I think it's time to say goodbye. There just isn't any more hope left and I think I've just played my last hand.
Thanks to all of you on here who I've met and known throughout the past 10 years or so - you all have been a great support system.
A friend wrote to me the other day - and I think she was trying to be nice - but it just kind made me more depressed when she said that people don't repsond - they have their own lives to worry about, etc. So I took that as a sign that I've pretty much got no one in my life who cares about me anymore.
I don't think I'll ever find anyone to love either.
No - I don't have a plan. But - I dunno. I'm not gonna last much longer. I've still got a little gas to keep my engine running - a few more days. However, when it runs out - that's it.
thanks everyone....
goodbye
poster:JerryPharmStudent
thread:679884
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