Posted by SLS on August 7, 2006, at 8:31:10
In reply to Re: Terrified of taking meds ...any advice /support » kizzie, posted by Glydin on August 7, 2006, at 7:11:34
> There was a time in my life I wanted and sought out negative info so I could justify my intense desire to not be on meds.
I remember how angry I was when I was first accurately diagnosed as having an affective disorder. I didn't want to have a biological disorder of the brain. I wanted to have a psychological disorder so that it would be under my control to rectify it.
> Gradually, I came to the realization: I have a problem that IS treatable with meds and other plans - not curable, but treatable.
I came to my realization much more quickly. I was an ultra-rapid cycler at the time. Once it was pointed out to me that the regular and dramatic fluctuations in my mood were due to the cyclic fluctuations in my biology, the truth became very evident and unavoidable. This was reinforced when the first medication I tried produced a dramatic improvement in my depression. Although this improvement lasted less than a month, it demonstrated both the biological nature of the disorder and its treatability.
Although I despised having to be tethered to a medication to funtion, let alone to be happy, I knew that it was necessary. How I would love to be tethered now. Unfortunately, I have not been able to find a treatment that works consistently.
If you are depressed right now, your judgment is affected, and I doubt you are processing this issue the same way you would be if you were not depressed and filled with anxiety. You will undoubtedly see more of and magnify the negative aspects and perhaps filter out and minimize the positive aspects. It may not be a balanced view.
- Scott
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