Posted by dmlvt on July 11, 2006, at 16:30:36
One month after I stopped drinking, I finally convinced my pdoc that things were getting worse rather than better and that I needed to see him. He was waiting for an increased Cymablta dosage/reduced Wellbutrin dosage to resolve things, but that change was three weeks ago with no good effects.
In the interim, I felt I'd gotten worse, with both depression and anxiety issues, the latter of which was new for me. I guess my e-mail yesterday finally sounded desperate enough to get me into his office today.
The pdoc thinks this is mostly due to a job/career change a few months ago and that I simply haven't adapted fully to the changes in my life. I thought he was going to boot me out of the office telling me I'd just be fine, when things have been getting worse.
Just before we were done, he went back to the issue of anxiety. He suggested and then gave me a script for Ativan (lorazepam). I took .5mg sub-lingually and within 15 minutes felt the best I've felt in weeks. I feel a bit fuzzy and sedated, but I found that I smiled spontaneously when talking to a co-worker shortly after I took the med. It's been quite a while since I'd had an unforced smile.
So, now I have to worry about all the issues related to benzos and we didn't discuss how long I'd take it. I'm supposed to take it "as needed", with anywhere from 1-3mg per day. I can tell already that I don't want to be taking this drug when I'm running though.
But, right this minute, I'm as calm and relaxed and happy as I've been in quite a while. We'll see what my wife thinks when I arrive home from work.
dmlvt
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