Posted by dmlvt on July 4, 2006, at 10:03:27
He had me stop drinking about a month ago. It wasn't easy at first, but clearly, it was good for me. As much as I love good wine or a cold beer after a run or a nice cocktail in the summer heat, I can certainly see staying away from alcohol permanently right now.
But, despite seeing the benefits of not drinking, the last month has been terrible. I upped the Cymbalta dosage 2 weeks ago and I've seen no improvements yet. In reality, both depression and anxiety seem to be worse. Yesterday, I was driving with my family and had so many negative thoughts racing through my head that I decided I needed my wife to drive instead of me. The negative thoughts were just so overwhelming that I didn't want to be in charge of my family's safety on the road.
So, tomorrow, my pdoc comes back into his office after being gone for almost 3 weeks. I'm hoping to talk to him or get in to see him ASAP. I don't know if he realizes just how bad things have been and I need to convey that to him somehow. I need to find some way out of all of this pretty soon whether through meds or back to therapy or both. A few times, I've actually thought of going to the ER, worried that I might do something stupid. The fact that I work at the local hospital makes that an unappealing option.
Thankfully, my wife has been right here with me the whole time, constantly checking on how I'm feeling and reminding me that she really cares about me. If I was solo in this world right now, this would be so much tougher.
dmlvt
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