Posted by mike lynch on June 21, 2006, at 19:52:29
In reply to Antipsychotic/SSRI Withdrawal Euphoria, posted by hgi698 on June 21, 2006, at 14:15:50
My experience with meds seem quite atypical, and I find it hard to find people who actually relate to my experience, and I can say what you illustrated replicates almost EXACTLY WHAT I HAVE GONE THROUGH
I was quite reserved, not very social or interesting. Had a few loyal friends, pretty dull and quiet when I was in a group.
Went on paxil for depression, first few weeks I had a different mindsent, and my personality seemed to have been boosted. I was more creative, more talktative, I had a newfound interest in politics, I seemed much more intellectual and articulate, I seemed much more bright. I talked fast, I was making jokes in class, I was quick witted made more friends, became noticed in school - more people liked me because they knew me. I could paint my ideas clearly, everything made sense - hypomania??
And after a couple weeks this elation subsided, and I seemed to have maintained somewhat of a mental boost but some of the color faded. It's really hard to articulate.
ANyway, things just went down with the paxil so I went off it and experienced euphoria, it was almost a different yet equally satisfying feeling that I experienced when going on the med. It was more of a relaxing mental boost rather then a hyper mental boost,. I had creativity, increased socially. All that euphoria sooned waned as the med completely depleted from my system. ANd this has replayed itself anytime I first go on and off an ad.
It has come to the point where, if I am on an ad, I will try and maintain that heavenly zone that I experience when I'm weening off, or increaseing the dose by declining to take it for some time, because it is during this time when I'm at my peak, creativity wise, social wise, articulate wise.
Probably hypomania, definite change in some aspects of my personality.
If only I could maintain that feeling for the longterm, when I take ad's as described my personality just wanes. It seems better then any stimulant I have taken, it brightens my personality like nothing else, and I have 0 complications.
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