Posted by ian34 on June 11, 2006, at 22:25:46
I'm 35 do online porn compulsively for whole weekends, have spent thousands of dollars on prostitutes and massage garbage and haven't had a relationship at age 35. Stopped aa years ago and don't even have friends anymore outside of work. Went to get help they said it's real and there is 12-step stuff but not very sucessful compared to aa. Cannot stop even when faced with enormous consequences and earnestly wanted to. Told that I have sever gad and medium depression and am on lamictal and zoloft. Alcoholic, shizoaffective mother bad childhood etc. This is bad enough that I've wished for death but wouldn't do that because I would never do that to my family. Relationships suck for me I cannot get close it's like a physical repulsion at the thought of that closeness.Ok, my rant is complete gracias.
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