Posted by jealibeanz on May 25, 2006, at 0:35:21
In reply to Re: What should I consider for long term treatment » jealibeanz, posted by Racer on May 24, 2006, at 22:19:13
I've mentioned those adjunctive treatments to severaldoctors in my practice. They look at me with blank stares, and then explain there is not enough research on the matter and that they can have some pretty nasty and serious side effects that outweigh the potential benefits. Disappointing, but completely understandable.
My depression symptoms:
-overwhelming sad feeling. The last few weeks have been beautiful and sunny. I hardly notice. I only notice gloom. I almost literally see clouds and darkness. I was shocked when a professor pointed out the wonderful weather and flowers. I can't even begin to see or appreciate such things.-When "depression" hits, it hits hard. It seemingly comes out of nowhere in my typical successful life, which is full of great opportunities and support. It's feels as if the ground has fallen out below me and I'm spiraling down uncontrollably into a negative, despondant, helpless, and hopeless mood.
-I walk around with tears in my eyes. There is nothing majorly upsetting going on in my life. There are no small things that I am crying about. It's just a physical reaction to being awake in a happy and well functioning world!
-I have difficulty laughing and jokes and relaxing at times when others normally do. My mind is either blank from a form of numbing I've created to stop the hurtful feelings to care or notice the humor, or I am so fixated on the pain that I cannot imagine how people are laughing at a time like this!
-I want to sleep. I want to sleep all day everyday. It's not because I'm lacking rest or truely tired. It's a foggy/groggy feeling. Lying in bed is also a way of not having to see the world of happy people.
-I don't care about future goals or responsibilities. I don't care about work, school, a future career. At very bad times I've skipped work or school, quit jobs, did little schooling, and withdrew from classes.
-My moods can be described as doom and gloom. Everyday is a battle to just get through in one piece, doing normal chores and activities. Everything is a huge effort, especially because I lack the desire and drive to do little more than sleep.
-I feel like I'm simply going through the motions of life. I don't seek out friends. I start skipping events. I give up on lifelong activities I've always enjoyed. I feel no pleasure. I have no desire to be alive and can't understand why anyone would.
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