Posted by chiron on May 21, 2006, at 10:48:06
In reply to ECT sounding pretty good, posted by blueberry on May 19, 2006, at 16:24:55
The fear/anxiety/insanity feeling is familiar to me-I hate it. Meds recently made me worse as well (I think). Mornings are the worse. Now I wake up and have anxiety about even doing my laundry. I get panicky about being alone, but I still feel intensely unstable/insane when I'm with my friends. I seriously thinking about starting ect later this week. I'll let you know if I do.
> Yeah, I've been reading about ECT and it is sounding pretty good to me about now.
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> The problem is that no matter what antidepressant I try, they induce a much more severe form of depression than I had. If I'm not in total despair or crying before I start one, I will be in about 2 days after starting. Happened years ago with moclobemide. Recently it has happened with my old buddy prozac, lamictal, then milnacipran, then lexapro, and cymbalta. This phenomenon has never happened before, except on a maoi. I am accustomed to getting side effects early in treatment, but NEVER getting severely worse. This is new in my long journey with these meds.
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> Odd though...I feel better right at the beginning of taking an antidepressant and I think I am on the right track...then it goes real bad the other direction...and then I feel better when I stop it. It's like the flow or the firing is all messed up, having nothing to do with neurotransmitter levels.
> It's like my brain needs stimulation, but not more neuros.
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> My problem is two-fold...I need inhibitory action for the free-floating fear/insantity/anxiety stuff that grips me in the morning...and yet excitatory stuff for the melancholic depression. Maybe a benzo plus a stimulant...good luck finding a doctor who would do that.
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> Yeah, ECT actually looks attractive at this point.
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