Posted by mike lynch on May 13, 2006, at 2:03:45
My account has been suspended for many,many weeks.. I can't even remember why but I haven't been here in almost a year but now I see that my account is reinstated, at a good time because something has really been bothering my lately.
The fact that I am only 18 makes this worse. First I am going to express a very complicated and verbose problem as short as possible just so you can get the necessary background
Got depressed, took paxil.. While on paxil I started having congitive problems, didnt' feel the same, felt dull... went off it..this feeling got worse, and I havent' felt the the same since. I feel more like me on ssri's then off so I take them
Now I feel I have very atypical reactions to drugs not many people experience the loss of identity, prolonged cognitive problems even after cessation of the ssri's. But I believe my MEMORY has worsened with the ssri's, but not to the point where it was intolerable.. but I did something I don't think I should have done considering my minds reaction to drugs and it just screwed up everything even more
I smoked weed once, and after that, it is exactly one month after that and the memory problems, that were worse then the initial memory problems have not improved. Days after I smoked I noticed my memory was worse then usual.. a month after they seemed to have improved a noticable amount..but it's still bad.
I wouldnt' mind if it was just things liek forgetting things, or what have you but it seems most persistent in coversations. I forget what I am going to say SO MUCh.. I'll have a thought and then POOF it'll be gone. I'll be in the middle of a long sentence, then forget mid way through what i was going to say. it especially happens when im trying to take in a lot of informtion.. or if suddenly the topic of conversations changes.. my mind just can't keep up with this.
I know it's silly to blame this on ONE TIME of weed use but I think my brain just can't handle drugs.. it wasn't just the weed it was the ssri's to. I'm just saying i don't know what to do because i'm only 18 and i can't have a flowing conversation with people because I am always forgetting what I have to say.. I just don't wanna think how bad it will be when I get much older. I really don't know what to do. My brain is so sensitive when it comes to drugs.. people who experiment when recreational drugs daily our more lucid then me..90 percent of my cognitvie problems stem from ssri's..a drug i was perscribed and then the weed just made it worse.. it's made my life hell i really didn't deserve any of this.. i didn't ask to be put on these drugs. I'm thinking about trying Piractem or DMAE but i really don't wannna get my hopes up so i don't know
poster:mike lynch
thread:643356
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