Posted by Paul on Long Island on May 7, 2006, at 13:34:35
In reply to Re: EMSAM Caused Severe Depression and Anxiety? » Paul on Long Island, posted by blueberry on May 7, 2006, at 13:21:08
> So sorry about what ensam did to you. I'm always so scared to start a new med because that has happened to me several times.
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> Your pattern is eerily similar to mine. At about 3am to 4am I can tell my body and mind are getting revved up. Then I wake in total terror, unexplained free floating fear. If I am ever going to feel half decent at all during the day, it is only after dinner, but it isn't consistent.
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> I've never figure out what these patterns are. It even happened when I was taking mood stabilizers.
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> Right now I'm having the hardest time getting back on any meds because of that morning terror. Though the meds would probably lessen it in the longrun, in the short run it is worsened dramatically and it is devastating.
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> I was on prozac and zyprexa for a long time. I was well, but flat. I should have been satisfied, because things have been on a steep downhill run ever since. I'm trying to get back on them now, but that morning terror is increasing and it's so scary to adjust doses. I feel frozen and hopeless.
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> I did pray for you.Hey Blueberry...thanks so much for responding. My own experience in the past with the prozac was truly remarkable. I was usually on a maintenance dosage of 20 mg, but there were times when things would get a bit more difficult and the doctor would up the dosage to 40 mg, and once or twice to 60 mgs. I'm not really clear on why you're having trouble going back on the prozac. If you're already having the early morning terrors, then why not go back on the prozac. The doctor gives me xanax and klonopin to get through those times. I have to admit that .5 mgs of xanax and crawling into bed with my partner helps a lot. Unfortunately for right now, it only helps that early morning terror. It's not cutting it as far as the anxiety and depression the rest of the day. I've never tried zyprexa. What is it and what are its side effects and drawbacks? You say that on the prozac and zyprexa you feel good, but flat. I've seen a few other people mention that too. I realize everyone is different. I find for myself that once the prozac kicks in, I find myself feeling out and out good, sort of a little mini kick...not a high or anything like that, just a good feeling.
It sounds like you and I have quite a bit in common as far as symptoms. I'd really love to talk to you more directly. I don't know what the rules are on this board as far as that goes, or even what your feelings are about it. But I'd love to chat with and possibly help each other out more directly. My email address is mattonli@optonline.net. I'm also on AOL as Lirealguy2, and on yahoo messenger as superhero_destroyed. If you'd be into talking that way or even just back and forth through these threads, I'd really like that. Seems to me like support networks can only be good things.
Above all, thanks for praying for me. It means so much to me. Paul
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