Posted by willyee on May 4, 2006, at 20:43:03
In reply to Re: insomnia w/parnate- considering emsam » willyee, posted by Phillipa on May 4, 2006, at 19:37:33
> Willyee such a low dose of ambien and parnate is so stimulating your depression must be the pits. Love Phillipa
I can handle the worst depression that can be thrown at me.......what i cant handle is the lose of hope,and with the patch not looking too great as a viable option,and still from reading around hearing im already on the what is highly condisdered the most potent Anti depressant,my hope is obviously dwindled a lot,when u have some of the best or most recomended drugs for the condition....i.e xyrem,klonopin,xanax,parnate and you still struggle well hope so now further than an arm reach away.If anyone has ever read my posts on other groups,seen my homepages where i dont mention none of this,and spoke to me via messagner they would know i never self loathed before,i mean i had my night or two but overall i was agressive in fighting it and had some form of content.
The self pity and loathing is what scares me the most,i never felt this way.My family never understood,or my close friends,from day one i know they believe if i just left the house,or did this or that,its just obvious they dont know,and maybe it is pathetic but i want some sympathy,i have never gotten any form of sympathy from my family at all,this could be partialy my fault as i dont complian but instead stay to myself,but latly i have and there seems to be a total lack of sympathy,normaly i wouldent care or want it.
All i know is if my brother,mom or dad was telling me they were in pain from something which they have,id be asking them morning night how they ffelt,when they walked in id ask,id learn about what they were dealing with,ah i dont wanna be one of those people that complain,i see a new doc soon,who knows least i know enough to have built my self an aresnal of emergency which i have.
Im 27 though,i should not know what dopamine is,i should be chasing girls and shooting pool lol,i have gotten a lot better at who i let in though,unless ur family or can offer me something,u dont deserve to know something that personal about me,thats why i never mention it on webpages i make or profiles etc.
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