Posted by chiron on April 23, 2006, at 16:54:28
33, have been depressed for at least 23 years. Started Prozac about 20 years ago (was it available then?)
On and off with mostly SSRIs – helps my pms
Currently on 100 mg Zoloft & 300 mg Wellbutrin
Mostly functional, but miserable. Offer me the blue pill to permanently end my existence and I would take it any day.
SSRIs seem to take the edge off. I’m confused about my body’s reaction when I try to increase Zoloft. At times it has been stimulating, and other times at has created too much sedation.
I remember the last time I increased my Wellbutrin to 450- I felt really good for a couple of days but then it faded.
I recently tried Adderall. At 30mg I was feeling great (to my surprise) for about a week. Then it didn’t seem to do anything (except make me feel acidic), and then it seemed to make my depression (pms?) worse. I stopped, but then have been actually taking it here & there with okay-to-neutral responses. It definitely helps me study.
I also recently tried Abilify. I was on about 5mg for a couple of weeks, then up to 10mg. It increased my ‘crazyiness’ feeling and made me gain weight.
My ‘craziness’ feeling: dark isolated tunnel in my head (& sometimes my gut?)– agitated to do something, yet don’t feel like doing anything – feel stuck in time – can’t figure out how people can handle living day to day – will I have to exist when I’m dead?
I’m pretty much always down, but sometimes I observe how sometimes my head gets even darker for no situational reason. Sometimes I have more motivation, sometimes not at all. Sometimes I feel ‘crazier’ than others. It’s hard to say if it is just screwy hormones or some rhythm problems.
My dr is thinking that maybe because I had a positive response to the adderall, that I just need more...?
Other meds I’ve tried:
Effexor
Paxil
Lamictal – bad acne
Seroquel
Tegretol
Lexapro
Zyprexa
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