Posted by Crazy Horse on April 16, 2006, at 21:40:59
In reply to Re: Unfortunately, I am a Lifer...., posted by rvanson on April 16, 2006, at 21:33:33
> > I remember it like it was yesterday, my first psychiatric break down. It was at the end of a stressful junior year in college. It started with severe panic attacks and eventually horrible, bed ridden, Depression. When i finally got in to see a psychiatrist i was diagnosed with panic attacks and major depression. I thought my life was over.
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> > He started me on Imipramine and Ativan. I was also seeing a psychotherapist 2 times a week. I remember asking my pdoc how long this would last and if i would ever be normal again. He said something like 6 wks., and yes i would probably be "normal" again because the imipramine would correct the chemical imbalance in my brain and after approx. 1 yr. on imipramine i could taper off and theoretically the imbalance would be corrected...yea right! Remember, this was 25 yrs. ago.
> > Well, it literally took about a year to even start to feel better. That year was a nightmare, many, many times, i contemplated suicide and only by the grace of God i didn't carry through. I remember begging God to let me die..I hated living, and saw no future for myself. My fiance' at the time dumped me as i'm sure she though i would never amount to anything. I was so hurt, so lonely, and so miserable.
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> Your story is so close to mine its not funny.
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> I had a bad case of flu/mono virus in 1980, and after that my life had changed completely with a full case of depression, social anxiety and insomnia.
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> My GF at the time was wierded out by my symptoms and took off running too, but I didnt miss her much after a few weeks.
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> My condition doesnt allow me to become very mad or glad anymore, unlike normal people.
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> Hoping this Emsam will help, but like you am resistant to current medical treatments.
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> May I ask if you ever had the chance to use the FDA banned anti-depression medication, Merital, back about 1985, before they pulled it off the market?
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Thanks for your post. I wish you the very best with EMSAME, it sounds like an excellent med.No, i never tried Merital, never even heard of it. Take care and God Bless.
-Crazy Horse
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