Posted by Meri-Tuuli on March 20, 2006, at 5:00:15
Hey there,
Well I haven't been doing too well recently, well pretty badly in fact. I just generally hate myself and have thoughts about self harm and suicide -- its kinda a feeling of I want to die in general, rather than I plan to do it this afternoon.
Anyway I'm seeing my totally useless GP tomorrow, and see what he says. I have supposedly been referred to be seen by a pdoc, although that was in November and I haven't heard a peep from them.
So I'm wondering what medication I could try. I'm on St John's Wort at the mo - I don't know if this has pooped out, or whether its not cutting it for more serious depression.
Well anyway I really know what the GP can/will prescribe - I get the feeling its limited to the SSRIs /TCAs .....
Anyone had any experience of a plain GP prescribe them anything 'stronger' or more exotic???
None of the drugs I have tried so far seem to help, although they were just sort of plain ones, like effexor, wellbutrin, celexa, prozac, reboxetine.
The trouble is SSRIs (and effexor) make me sleepy and apathic so I won't even touch a TCA, Prrozac didn't make me sleepy, but it gave me bad anxiety. Same with Wellbutrin, although that gave me a weird rash too. Reboxetine sort of made me on edge all the time, heart beating fast, although it did improve my concentration, but it gave me acne, stopped my periods, and didn't help the depression.
So whats left to try????
ARghhhhhhh - I'm so frustrated because I know the GP won't or can't prescribe anything to augument SSRIs so I didn't feel sleepy, or to counter the anxiety. Or anything exotic. Its makes me mad!! Stimulants are completely out of the question, although I still might ask, as is provigil as is any benzos to help the anxiety.....
I look at some of the drugs that people in North America can get prescribed for them (and which help them!!) and I just feel so angry and frustrated and sad that people here in the UK can't get access to them (unless perhaps, they go to a pdoc, but then on the NHS? Maybe you could do it privately, but I ain't got that cash!!)
I just don't know what to do anymore.
poster:Meri-Tuuli
thread:622395
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