Posted by KrystalR on March 8, 2006, at 15:51:38
Hi. My name is Krystal. I have been diagnosed as having bipolar disorder and a pretty bad anxiety disorder as well. I would like to think that I am pretty high functioning. I have had this problem since I was only 13 and have been hospitalized twice for attempted suicide. I thought that I had my life together, when honestly I was making very impulsive decisions, spending tons of cash, doing a lot of drugs, and basically killing myself slowly. Things started shaping up for me after I married at the young age of 21. I have two kids, and most people have no idea what I deal with on a day to day basis. In fact, people would probably think I have the perfect life. In reality, I am going through my own personal hell trying to find the "right" medication. So far, I have tried lithium, Seroquel, Wellbutrin, Zoloft, Zyprexa, and the worst: Abilify. Right now I am on Paxil, Xanax, and have just started Geodon. I hated the weight gain that was associated with Zyprexa, so this is our next step. In researching Geodon, I have found many scary side effects including sudden death. This has scared me so much that I had a horrible panic attack and had to take a xanax. I am supposed to double my dose tonight, from 20mg to 40mg. I am terrified that I will die! Please tell me that this is false, that it's an extremely safe drug, and that I will be safe and fine.
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