Posted by gibber on March 5, 2006, at 23:14:41
In reply to Re: What a great thread, posted by FredPotter on March 5, 2006, at 21:49:54
I know about the oneness with the universe thing. Earlier on my depression I would have these breakthrough moments (usually when I was playing music). I would be flying high (not manic) and think I would never be depressed again, but within a few hours I was back to normal and then a day later I would fall into an abyss. The SSRIs all seemed to stop these moments from happening which was a blessing and a curse. You know, what comes up must come down. ALthough I loved these "great moments" I would probably trade it for some consistent peace of mind and creativity. No doubt the high moments produced great creativity but I don't think mentally healthy people experience those things. In the last few years those swings or highs occur less frequently. After I saw "Brokeback Mountain" I was sobbing in car ride home and sort of felt enlightened. On another note I've been dealing with this so long that I'm good at hiding my symptoms. No one would know unless I told them.
poster:gibber
thread:616157
URL: http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/20060304/msgs/616442.html