Posted by Op27Nr2 on February 21, 2006, at 0:06:28
In reply to Re: Confused regarding choice of med presecribed, posted by sdb on February 20, 2006, at 15:44:36
sdb,
Us musicians - we're a weird, errrrr ummmm eccentric bunch. I played the third movement to Beethoven's Op27, #2 Sonata (among other pieces) for my senior recital in high school. It was a very special performance for me, as it was the last time my mother attended my performances while she was still alive.
The anxiety I experience is not socially-related. It's really hard to explain what I feel. Sometimes I wish I could meet someone that can understand this anxiety I feel. Basically I have relatively benign everyday life occurrances or thoughts that, for whatever reason, trigger an anxious response. Going to traffic court? I'm going to end up with a felony on my record for the rest of my life. Stopping for gas on my way to work? I'm going to get fired for being late. Eating that last morsel of food on my plate? I'm going to end up morbidly obese for the rest of my life.
Do you see how irrational my thought process is? And that was just a VERY small sample of what goes on in my head during the course of my everyday life. There's so much more to this than I can articulate in words on here.
My worrying about everything totally consumes me to the point where I avoid doing the things I need to do on a daily basis. Perhaps this, in fact, *IS* a form of social phobia. I don't know. Whatever it is, I wish I could just get over it.
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