Posted by deniseuk on February 17, 2006, at 10:36:47
Hi,
I'm really uncertain as to what to do next. I know the Seroxat at 40mg isn't working, the last week or so I've felt myself go right down and I took 30mg of Mirtazapine last night in desperation just to feel better than I did yesterday.
The psychiatrist has tried augmenting with Buspar, thyroid agent and tegretol to no avail.
He sent me for a second opinion yesterday and all the psychiatrist concluded was that I was "Depressed" and that he would increase the Seroxat to 50mg not 60mg he said because that's only for OCD! He's also recommending that I see a therapist as he believes I've never had a stable life! It seems to me that when drugs don't work they always push you onto therapy just as something to do. I'm sure if you delved hard enough into anybody's life you could find a reason why they were depressed.
I don't know whether to give up on Seroxat completely for six months and just take Zyprexa as and when needed in the hope that I can go back on the Seroxat in 6 months time and it will work better or try augmenting the Seroxat with something else.
I'm really getting sick of all this trial and error with nothing really working. I want my life back!
I'm not going out hardly any more, just about getting myself to work and back but have very little motivation and constantly feeling like I'm having to pretend to everyone that I'm normal and that I feel normal. I'm going to bed earlier and earlier and I'm starting to get those weak, vulnerable feelings.
I bought a flat last year because I don't want to just give up on life completely but I have very little interest in it, my mum is more enthusiastic and keen on doing it up than I am. I'm reluctant to buy anything for it because I can't enjoy anything and don't see the point in buying nice things if I can't enjoy them properly.
Also, I'm worried that I won't be able to work and won't be able to afford to buy anything for it.
I'm very worried, not sure whether or not to try the ECT again or even go down the route of Deep Brain Stimulation.
Any suggestions gratefully appreciated.
Denise
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