Posted by James K on February 11, 2006, at 1:36:35
In reply to I know this is a med board but need input......, posted by fiftylager on February 10, 2006, at 13:51:44
Well today, it seems I have. I'm not complaining except now I wonder what the hell is wrong. I still have anxiety but I have anxiety every day.
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> God, I was even thinking suicidal thoughts but not near acting them out.
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> How in the hell do I deal with my dr. now that I am feeling more balanced? What the hell was that? It was hell.===I wanted to share a little about this aspect of your post. It was hell for a while, now it is better, what do I do? - I'm just condensing down one of what I see as the underlying concern right now.
Anyone who has been following me for the last several weeks, couple months, Has read me describing horrible sadness, physical self injury, violent thoughts, crying and acting out right here on the site. But tonight as I type, I'm considering not completing the steps I started last week to get hopitalized. That is a ludicrous idea process for me to even get in. But I feel pretty okay at the moment.
I think your personal hell may or may not have been as extreme as mine just was, but it happened. My long experience shows me I have to deal with this before it springs back out bites me. I've added new traumas to a lifetime of traumas if anything, I may be worse off than before not less.
But that's all about me. You have the letter. Everything in the letter is true, and it shows the intensity of what you were feeling. Use that as the proof to yourself and whatever kind of psych care you can get access to. If you've weathered the storm, maybe you saved yourself a trip in-patient, and can handle this while life goes on.
keep trying,
james k
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