Posted by reese7194 on January 31, 2006, at 17:48:19
it's been...i don't know maybe 15 years. i have taken everything there is. even things that are so off-label you have to find very special and doctors that are in an incredibly powerful position to prescribe them. but still i am only so much better than i was. and that is a huge maybe.
i feel very much like there is no more hope in this direction. in fact i feel no hope at all. my hope has been slowly wiped away in the past five years. there was a time when i looked to the future with all the possible off label hope there was.
like some you will see on the board here with buprenorphine or anything else. but what happens when you feel there is nothing else to look forward to?
that you might face a life with nothing but waking up and remembering what you were once?
if i am whining and passive i understand your point of view. i just want to know what peoples views on this are.
i am so tired of trying and trying to find something that ends up less than nothing. i don't see anything at the moment. in fact i wish something apocolyptic at times would happen. not to everyone....just something....
thanks you.
reese
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