Posted by Lmarqueling on January 12, 2006, at 18:26:34
Ok, where to start.
I was diagnosed with depression when I was 19. I took a couple of pills, got sick and stopped taking them (I believe them to be Zoloft). I would go through spells especially around my period.. and I would be at really low phases, then really high phases.. and then normal.I didn't take any antidepressent again until 9 years later. I just dealt with my highs and lows because there was always that normal phase in between. One day, I became stressed out (personal issues, work etc) to the point where I just couldn't stop crying. So I was put on Prozak and was told that I was depressed and had anxiety issues. I was also put on the birth control pill (I've always wondered if this affected my moods). Well I lost weight and was feeling pretty good until they eventually started wearing off. I was put on a higher mg and would fall asleep at work nonstop so I had to take myself off of them. I was then put on Wellabutrin, Lexapro, and a couple of others. I gained 50#'s in the last 3 years, which isn't very healthy.
Another stressful personal event took place about a year ago and I hit my all time low. I Couldn't eat, couldn't sleep, couldn't function. I actually thought i was going to lose my job. I went to a pshychiatrist and he subscribed symbyax because he said that I was bi-polar. That worked out fine. I started feeling better so I slowly weened myself off of them. (Mind you, I haven't been on the birth control pill for a 1 1/2 yrs.)
My present situation. I was told to go back on the pill because of ovarian cysts and really heavy bleeding. I have had major mood swings a couple of times since then (probably doesn't help that i quit smoking). I talked to my phsychologist about it and he told me about cyclothymia (he thought i had it because I have been so open with him about my husband and I's marriage/personal problems whereas the phsyciatrist gave me a 10 min test and then told me i was bipolar). I never have heard of this before and started reading about it and it seems to fit me. I am really normal most of the time (besides being lazy and unmotivated - which I blame on not excercising and bad diet).. adn then there are times when I'm on top of the flipping world.. self confident.. feel like I can conquer anything.. then there are times where I don't want to talk to anyone and won't leave the house because I'm so exhausted from my wandering mind. I don't want to be told that I have something else... but the disorder seems to make sense. I'm not all the time "low" and I'm not all the time "high" and I'm normal in between!
I'm scared to be put on another drug. I've maintained my weight for years and then all of a sudden gain a whopping 50#, my opinion from switching to all those drugs... and the word lithium scares the crap out of me. What do you guys think that I should do? See a doc?
poster:Lmarqueling
thread:598422
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