Posted by vladimir on January 11, 2006, at 22:39:16
hi, i am new to the board and would like to get some opinions to help me out because i am wondering if what i experience is a dysphoric mania. i have been doing research and there are a lot of different definitions of dysphoric mania, including it just being depression. but i have read some other definitions and i am wondering if what i experience at times are dysphoric manias.
so here is what i experience. i suddenly become overcome with a feeling of inner squaler that is extremely, extremely uncomfortable and it feels kinetic. i feel like i have just done something incredibly awful because i feel extremely dirty and and experience intense feelings of horror. i feel unbelievably uneasy. it is really difficult to explain. it feels completely unlike a standard human emotion. i have jump up and walk around really quickly while it is happening until i am able to push the feeling down.
the worst i have experience this feeling was two years ago and i was hospitalized. i was diagnosed by one doctor with depressive type schizoaffective disorder and by another doctor with bipolar.
so i don.t know what to think about it anymore. i want the feeling to be dyphoric mania because i need some sort of definition for it, i guess. because it makes me feel like i am not so essentially strange if there were some sort of catagory i could put it into.
but i was just wondering if anyone else feels something like this and if so, is it dysphoric mania. and i am pretty sure they are not panic attacks because i know people who have had them and this is not what they describe.
thanks, and i would appreciate any input i can get.
poster:vladimir
thread:598180
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