Posted by reese7194 on January 9, 2006, at 9:01:04
hi,
everyone. i see that people are taking / trying buprenex which i am glad to see. i remember five years or so ago...trying to get that stuff. my god was it hell.
i am currently on opiods and have been for the past few years. i don't know if anyone else has been on any opiod for this amount of time. but i am curios what side effects they have felt.
besdies the obvious of tolerance...what else?
for me the one thing that worries me and makes me stop taking them sometimes is a feeling that it dries up my passion / mental activity. it's the only med that works like the stereotype of how lithium is supposed to work for the crazed manic / depressive. it did save my life. i can sit still. no longer feel like i am on fire. i can sleep. etc etc etc
but i do feel like it has lowered the voices in my head somewhat. i don't know if this makes sense. or i think it can be the fact that i have gotten older. more jaded. more angry. more pathetic. more hopeless. you know? it's hard when you feel like you have nothing left to turn to.
put it this way. if anything ever happened again the last place in the world i would go is a mental hospital. why? there is nothing they can do for me there that i can't do for myself at this point. people who have been there enough understand that the main thing it does is ... it's like a waiting room but it goes for days or maybe a week.
i am rambling now. currently taking depakote, adderall, klonipin, cymbalta (useless) anyone else taken this, some other stuff as well
bye bye
reese
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