Posted by Glydin on January 4, 2006, at 9:08:52
In reply to How Long Is This Cymbalta Going To Take Before the, posted by Phillipa on January 3, 2006, at 18:11:38
Phillipa,
I think there are times we have to look at why we sabotage ourselves before we even start. I know I had to do that for myself. Truthfully, something within me wanted me to embrace the idea of these meds being evil, awful and was going to be the ruination of me. Why? – The reasons are many, but I believe the main one was I did not want to think of the impact to life. While I did not want to continue the way I was going, there was a “blockage” to the thought I could be helped. It was almost a question of inertia – the changes to my entire thought processes were frightening after living a particular way for quite a while. Embracing the negative was a way for me to justify. This is a gut wrenching admission for me, but it was completely true.
Self-sabotage is a reality; I have been guilty of it. I found immersing myself in the negative was a good predictor of my failure before I started on several occasions. I believe the posts here and other boards like this are truthful and well meaning, but I also believe we have to come to the realization of their impact on us may be due to not trusting our own responses and an irrational need that is part of our disorders.
I urge you to give Cymbalta a chance and try, with your doc’s guidance, to work on making it work for you. Think how wonderful it would be to gain a success.
Best,
Glydin
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