Posted by detroitpistons on January 3, 2006, at 23:08:38
In reply to Re: When are benzos justified? » detroitpistons, posted by Glydin on January 3, 2006, at 22:03:41
All,
Thank you so much for your responses...They really help. I think Glydin hit the nail on the head. Quality of life is definitely a big part of this issue.
I may be "functional," but sometimes barely so. When I'm in a pretty bad period of depression, I really just want to crawl into a hole, but I keep pushing on, probably because I'm stubborn. Actually, it's probably because I have a fear of "losing it." I have a fear of not being able to PAY THE BILLS, and of just basically alarming everyone around me and disrupting the little bit of normality that I have. I keep up a facade. It's actually pretty ironic...My anxiety can be the cause of my depression and also the reason why I don't completely "lose it." So I keep plodding along. I think I've sort of adapted to living like this.
Today I took Xanax twice (.25mg each time) throughout the day, and it really helped a lot. I felt so much better. I believe my depression is largely anxiety driven. If I can control the anxiety, I may be able to prevent major depressive episodes (and also your basic dysthymia) from happening.
I think I'm going to get my money's worth out of my next pdoc appointment...It's about time.
Thanks again all!!
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