Posted by Racer on January 3, 2006, at 18:46:40
In reply to Re: Hospital question? Not sure where to post » Racer, posted by ClearSkies on January 3, 2006, at 16:39:50
Hm, the baby thing is a big deal, as you know. And there are two reasons I don't see giving up right now: last chance, age wise; and cutting down on the meds (not to mention adding the Clomid) is likely to set this all off again whenever I do it. The age thing is the big deal, though. If I say, "This isn't a good time to do this," I'm pretty well saying, "I'm not going to be able to have children." Not a statement that I can see my way to making.
While this may not seem like the best reason to have children, I can't see that life is at all worth living for me without a child. I actually wanted more than one, but at my age I guess I'll be lucky if I manage the one. This isn't something new, even when I've been in total remission, I've always felt that life wouldn't be worth the effort without that.
Ugh.
I know that your advice is good, and there is part of me right now saying that the way I'm feeling is too dangerous to have a child around. That I'm just too sick to think of having a child. But the next thought after that is, "OK, so there's no reason to live, how can I end this pain without a whole lot of suffering on the way?" So, not necessarily a great option to consider, you know?
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