Posted by med_empowered on December 11, 2005, at 3:12:01
In reply to Is my biochemistry changing, im socializing crazy, posted by rjlockhart on December 10, 2005, at 22:15:04
it happens. I used to have crazy social phobia when I was younger--skipping class, freaking out visibly (sweating, trembling, red-face--the whole 9 yards) and now...its a lot better. Part of it is a change in scene; I'm surrounded by people who understand I sometimes have "social issues," so they work with me...they push me to do stuff I need to do (like get my own drinks at a bar instead of sending people up for me), but also give me leeway when necessary (like when I turn taciturn and they know I feel really uncomfortable). Plus, I'm not in high school anymore, where kids would make fun of me for being "crazy" (apparently, panic attack=insane), nor am I at my old college, where I was also "crazy" for the same reason.
Now, sometimes I think my only problem is that sometimes I dont care. At all. My inner-smart a$$ comes out a lot more often, and its easier for me to be hyper-sociable during mild hypomania-ish states than before, when I'd internalize all that energy and turn neurotic. (I'm 21 now, by the way).
Anyway...treatment is probably helping. Growing up sometimes help social phobia--sometimes it gets worse, too, so thats a mixed-bag. Whatever it is...just go with it, and enjoy yourself.
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