Posted by rod on December 2, 2005, at 8:42:03
In reply to Going back on Anafranil (Clomipramine) :-/, posted by rod on July 10, 2005, at 12:20:58
hi everybody.
So, now I am back on Anafranil. Taking if for some weeks now, and have to say it really helps. (unlike the SSRIs, for me)
And I am starting to realize my social anxiety (its actually more like a fear) is (was) a *much* (!) bigger probem than I thought it is. Well, I guess some doctors a right after all, but unfortunately they put me on the wrong (for me) drugs (SSRIs) for that purpose... No, never tried nardil and probably never will..
Its almost a bit "magic" to feel some "walls" coming down, the bars of my cage I was in seem to dissipate. A few days ago I went out and it was almost weired, because unknown people just started talking to me. ! just smalltalk.. but hey! I just dont look so "angry" anymore in social situations. My social anxiety is much more like a social fear. I dont get a red face, increased heart rate or other "adrenergic" symptoms. I just feel "unwell", want to hide, in a deep hole, where noone can see me... And "putting" (I couldnt influence this ofcourse) on this face is (I guess) an uncounscious mechanism to keep people away from me. away, so no one will talk to me. .. a mechanism to "protect" me.. but an unsuccessful one in the end.
Well, I increased to ~110mg, but in combination with my ohter drugs was too much, and my weight almost exploded... So now I am back on 75mg. And thats ok also.. and a girl I know noted that my "little" belly suits me fine :-) (because I also look better when non depressed and non smoking) ... yes I am still overweight, but it seems ok. I will slowly start to exercise and eat less cookies and everything will turn out fine...
thats my little message..
bye
IM Weasle :P
poster:rod
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