Posted by iforgotmypassword on November 25, 2005, at 22:26:23
i can't do anything. no doctor is very willing to help me. i have no depresion. i just can't do anything. i feel completely paralysed. any task in impossible to do. i have episodes of stupid energy where i just get full of stupidity can't make any sense, can't be used for anything, and by the time that there over nothing is accomplished. this is nothing like hypomania and doesn't last for days or weeks.
i am always gorging myself with food and passing out. this is all i do. i feel barely able to keep my head up, but miraculously if someone is around i perk up and seem completely fine to anyone around me. i have no emotions only facts and stupity and anger. i just bla bla bla about crap... nothing about anything. it is like i am under some curse to make everything to mean nothing, make me lazy disgusting unable to do or say anything and everything a complete failure. never able to feel anything. i have no access to the ability to care about anything and when it is something that hurts from a long time ago i cannot deal with it. complete block. why can't i talk at all, why are words just impossible to use, why can't i do anything or feel anything?!!?! i can't live like this!!
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thread:582247
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