Posted by zoolin on November 22, 2005, at 3:30:47
In reply to Re: ritalin .., posted by University on October 30, 2005, at 20:32:51
HI all..you guys are all so great. I cannot express how nice it was to see people cared. I have been feeling like a piece of crap since I got on this cycle with the meds. Anyway..what I take ..oral meds..methadone 10 mg tabs..presc at 1 tab per 3 hrs. I take perhaps 2 tabs per day usually but there have been a couple of horrible times I took the dose prescribed. That is a RARE hing. I hardly even fil my methadone presc in fact. I fill about 4..maybe 5 of the 12 mo presc I am handed. The ritalin. I am prescribed 20 mg 3X a day. ..well...I have told you guys..I find myself (NO MATTER WHAT I TRY...(:..I take them before the time) I am out in about half as long as I should be. I tried taking my bottle as soon as I filled the script and dividing it between 4 envelopes and sealing them..wellll....I tore right into the envelopes before time. ( I hate myself..I am normally not a person who cant tell myself no) Ok..thats all the oral meds. The Dr did mention provigil and even gave me some samples ( I didnt notice anything though..I still ate up the ritatin) However the provigil is 244.00 for a mo supply so it is not within my financial capabilities so I have not requested a hard copy for a script. Ok..then I have a internal "morphine" pump. Actually it is a innerthecal pump. Morphine causes me to swell though and I cannot take it when delivered like that (I say that because the Dr gave me a 14 day sample of a time release capsule of morphine and it did not bother me however THAT med is 199.00 a mo comparted to about 40.00 a mo for the darn methadone so my budget forces me to remain on the methadone) My pump has a mixture of clonadine, baclophen and dilaudid in it. I am unsure of the exact ratio of the drugs but I think it is at about 6 mgs fow. I go for a pump adjustment tomorrow and I will ask the ratio. I also guess Ill see if I can get my scripts refilled and HOPE he doesnt ask why the script my Dr wrote on the 11th is ..gone. I figure it is gonna be soon they will notice that I am asking..early. Most of the time I just have to go without for about a week or a week and a half till its time to fill them but a couple of ties I "got away" with getting it early and went to a different pharmacy to fill it because I knew they would tell me it was to soon. I have suggested I be given more ritalin but my Dr has told me several times that 60 mg is a "high" dose. I weigh about 135 now I guess. I am loosing lots of weight the past several mo.....no appetite and ..well just weak all the time. I sure Thank you all for your thouhts and mostly for your compassion. My boyfriend..roommate..whatever one calls him is not very understanding. He just considers me a drug addict . He doesnt BEGIN to see that I just savor being able to have ANY energy and when I feel the ability to get out of bed and GO SOMEWHERE..anywhere..I dont want to stop. He says that is what all drug addicts do..make an excuse to feed their addiction. (sigh) maybe he is right..I dont know. I feel ashamed of myself for not taking the med as prescribed. Plus, when I get started on it I do KNOW that being awake for 2 or 3 days is NOT healthy. I just dont think I have got the exact dose down for how much it would take me to be awake all day but still be able to sleep that night.I get all happy about doing ..whatever it is I am doing and take more and more and more. Lord....I sound like a maniac! Well..its nice to be honest with you guys. I figure you will either understand otr not..either way..you have all been so very kind for expressing your thoughts and I appreciate that so very much. Hope I answered most of everyones questions..have I ?? Ill post tomorrow evening and give the ratio of meds in my pump plus tell you about a new med I tried (unsuccessfully) that was made after they studie cone snails abilitry to render their prey immobile! The stuff seems to have given lots of people a bunch of pain relief. It left me ..I felt paralized! EVEN after taking my entire supply of ritalin I just sat/laid and stared..unable to move. I guess thats what the fish do while the snails eat them! It was awful and I still had severe pain. I just was frozen..unable to do anything. Making a phone call was a BIG dal. I couldnt do anything. Well..thanks everyone. Linda
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