Posted by zarathustra on November 15, 2005, at 11:24:17
I have struggled with depression and possibly ADD for most of my life. Antidepressants no longer work at 30.
When I smoke marijuana, my experience seems to be PROFOUNDLY different from the norm, its almost paradoxical. I seem to be able to think "clearly", that is, I am able to realize things about my life and existence that I am not capable of otherwise. However the anxiety is overwhelming and I feel as though I am psychotic...thoughts are broken, memory is useless, my heart races, and I have disturbingly creative thoughts. I will cry one minute, then get angry or laugh the next. Also, I seem to have an emotional hangover the next day and I get very depressed.
Why do I smoke it you ask? Well it breaks up the monotony of life I guess.I am wondering if a persons response to Marijuana can be indicative of underlying chemical problems, or can help me to finally diagnose myself definatively. I have heard it can trigger psychotic episodes; why?
Are the receptors for marijuana linked with the ones for depression?Thanks
Andrew
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