Posted by Chairman_MAO on November 1, 2005, at 9:00:15
After about 7 months on 90mg/day phenelzine, and having come off of buprenorphine (except for PRN use), I had an orgasm yesterday without exerting any undue effort. Who knows when or if it will ever work that way again, but it does give me a lot more hope than I had!
I cannot believe how effective this medication is. My drive and focus are superior to 40mg-80mg/day d-amphetamine + 80mg/day citalopram (though that was back in 2001-2002). Fine-grained cognitive abilities that I displayed in high school and even moreso during the time as an undergrad when I managed to get nominated for philosophy undergrad of the year, faculties that I thought I a) had to take psychostimulants to access b) were gone forever are starting to come back.
CAVEAT: I feel this way when I CAN GET SLEEP.
Unfortunately, I a feel as if I'm locked in a chinese finger trap trying to get someone to Rx me a real (read: GABAnergic) sleep aid. I Almost ran my car off the road the other day due to some kind of "microsleep" happening; I managed to come upon 8mg of lunesta to split up over 3 days or so, but that is not a long-term solution. I am supposed to be workjing toward getting back into school in January, but I spend whole days camped out in the clinic nodding off.
I have exhausted every non-GABAnergic sleep option and OTC option I can find. Until I got this lunesta, I shot dope for about 4 nights in a row PLUS take a billion other things (clonidine, diphenhydramine, bacopa, ramelteon, etc). When I built tolerance to that, I had to drop it. Plus, I didn't even WANT to do it; I just want to sleep!
Antipsychotics/trazodone/etc are not an option because at sufficient doses they negate all of the antidepressant effect of the drug.
I have started becoming so sleep deprived that if I managed to hit REM sleep, I would have violent night terrors and/or heavily emotional dreams where I would ACTUALLY od things like scream, cry out for help. One dream I had to throw myself from a speeding car. I was staying at my g/f's,a nd actually thew myself off the bed onto a picture frame on the floor, my head landing two inches from a dumbell on the floor.
Whatever happened to the hippocratic oath?!? If I can't get something soon going for me you will see me here soliciting sedative/hypnotic donations!
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thread:574094
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