Posted by psychopharmaddict on October 26, 2005, at 11:24:22
Ok, I would like some advice about this combination , even though these meds are working so good, it may be too good or am i just fooling my self. Well here we go.
To be brief, (Im diagnosed ADD, Opiate Addiction, and refractory depression , social anxiety. Now, some wonder what and why a doc has me on meds which can be abused. I tried explaining on another board and a person got me very angry , just saying addict, addict this and that. I dont like to hear this because I dont abuse these medications, I take less except for adderall, i take exactly my dose.
30mg 3x day. Every 6 hrs. Suboxone 4mg every 18-24 hrs, and klonopin .5mg every 8hrs.
Now, I researched my own problems, I know I have an addiction problem, but has anyone heard of reward dyficiency syndrome. For years, I was misdiagnosed, given serotonin meds, and no avail. NE meds , not much. But Once (never new until 2 yrs ago, I Had Innatentive ADD, Refractory Depression, and a doctor who was willing to work with me. I was honest and told him I never abused stimulants, cocaine, just Opiates, so I dont think adderall would be a big problem. Since then < I never felt so mentally lively, social, happy, hardly ever angry, NOT high, and any good feelings from these drugs go away after 2 days of first taking them and just work but you really cant feel them.
Now, I cannot stop taking them, or Ill withdrawl. This is more dependancy, I know, but If im not using or drinking, Im mentally active, and feel great , not high great! but i can keep a task going, read for hrs, nice to family, plus 10. Negative, i have maybe sleep problems, or sometimes stay up late or long hyperfocuses. THe good outwieght the bad.
But Then If im posting this on say another forum, someone with throw there 2 sence in, and i dont mind, if they say its addictive and explain there reasoning, but not oh bud your an addict or these meds make everyone happy , or stuff like that. I feel like they fail to have the insite of the full picture.
I was never diagnosed with Reward Deficiency Syndrome, but believe me, that zest for life came back with adderall, but the 12 other meds, no. even taking many supplements, no. But adderall yes. Biochemically, I do feel my Limbic area is not releasing proper amounts of Dopamine from the Nucleus accumens to the prefrontal cortex when i did not have amphetamine, but once administered this, it kicked it back in.
Before this medication combination, I was on 2 potent AD;s Zoloft/Rememeron, a doctor telling me, this is very strong combonation. Well i never felt a twinkling of being happy, or satified feeling, just numb. Well If being happy is still bad or "pleasure seeking" I dont mind it, its much better than numb, or angry all the time with a bad mood.
thank you for your time. I will respond to your replys in a professional manner .
poster:psychopharmaddict
thread:572079
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