Posted by Maxime on October 7, 2005, at 14:39:56
In reply to Re: Why can't it leave me alone? » Maxime, posted by Ilene on October 6, 2005, at 21:21:33
I'm not really seeing a pdoc now. I moved in July leaving my pdoc behind. Wish I could have brought him along. But I did return for visit and I saw him.
As far as meds are concerned, I've been on them them and tried them all. I do take Parnate, Synthroid (hypothyroid), Trileptal and Klonopin. I use Dexedrine when I really can't function. Although I have tried it past week and it doesn't help.
You can ask Link ... there is no way I can find a new doc here. I'm in Canada. First, I would have find a GP ... impossible who would refer me to a GP ... impossible. Severe shortage of doctors here.
So I am stuck ... as usual. I f*cking hate being me. I'm worthless. I could disappear from the planet and no one would know.
Maxime
> You and me both. This disease never leaves me alone. I'm starting to pull out of "thinking about suicide all the time" to "low level of functionality". I am frightened that I'm never going to get better, that I'll always be susceptible to sliding back down, and that it can happen at any moment....
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> My pdoc just called me. She wants me to see her tomorrow. My T wants to talk to me. I suppose these are good things, but I don't know what they can do for me in the short term. They've both given me pep talks, but I tend to forget what they say.
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> Are you on meds/seeing a pdoc?
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> Got to go now.
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> I.
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