Posted by Racer on September 29, 2005, at 19:53:42
In reply to Re: enough, posted by Maxime on September 29, 2005, at 14:08:55
> Hey Racer.
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> Sometimes a doctor can get samples. He would have to call the makers of Adderall XR. Last time I was the one who had to figure out how to get Strattera.But no compassion programs at all up there? Have you checked NeedyMeds.com? I just want to make sure that there's not an easy solution here. If you tell me that you've checked -- and don't listen to the docs, they often don't know about these programs -- I'll leave it alone.
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> I don't even think the Adderall will help at this point. I am too far gone. I need a gun or a miracle.I've felt that, too, Maxime. And I'm still here. I'll put my great brain on it and see if I can help you on that miracle, 'K? I won't help with the gun, though. I don't like loud noises, and I do like the world better with you in it.
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> I wish there was some place I could go where I could leave myself behind. I am sick of myself always being there. I wish I would just f*ck off already! I'm depressed and always complaining and constantly crying. I'm keeping Kleenex in business.
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> Any suggestions?
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> Maxime the loser.
>I have a bunch of suggestions, Maxie -- I'm not sure you'd like any of them right now. I'll think about what they might look like for you right now and get back to you.
One suggestion, which you might think is too stupid to consider, is to give yourself permission to grieve tomorrow -- for your health, your job, your move, etc -- and maybe watch a tear jerking movie to help you cry out as much of your misery as you can. While it will make you feel sick, and it will seem like a total waste of time, and you'll probably wonder why you're such a "loser" and all the rest of it -- it might be that you need a bit of catharsis. I know that "Anne of a Thousand Days" will often help me feel better simply because I cry so hard -- making myself quite sick in the process -- that a lot of my grief comes out, leaving me free to start over the next day with less emotional tension inside me.
I hope you feel better soon, dear. You are important.
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