Posted by mellymel_d on September 23, 2005, at 21:24:09
I'm so tired of feeling like this. I need support and don't know what anybody can say to help me. Everybody says hang in there but damn I'm at the end of my rope..I've tied a knot and I'm hanging on as tight as I can.
I wanna laugh, I don't wanna feel this saddness deep inside of me and I don't want to keep freking out everywhere I go.
We had to go to dinner for my brother in laws birthday tonight and the whole night has just been a blur to me. I remember sitting in the restaurant and just staring at my plate, feeling sick to my stomach and feeling like I was stuck in my own little sad world. I could see people laughing around me but couldn't join. I couldn't snap out of it and then I started getting anxious thinking OMG everybody probably knows I'm freaking out right now, they must think I have serious issues (I do ) but I don't like feeling like I'm being judged and truth be known now that I'm home nobody probably even noticed. I was invisable.
Does all that make sense?
poster:mellymel_d
thread:558729
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