Posted by chess on September 14, 2005, at 9:18:45
In reply to To Chess, posted by denise1966 on September 14, 2005, at 7:27:51
thanks all for the support
it's nice to know others are going through the same thing or at least can relate
i wish we lived near each other to start a support group!
and denise you're right, i often wish we lived in the time of STAR TREK and they could tell me "sam, you have a biological disorder that isn't allowing enough gaba to be released into your brain and you need the xanax to help potentiate what you got!" instead of not knowing whether this is true or if it's more a matter of scary thoughts and memories that are causing all the problems and my biology is fine and cbt is the way to go and the less xanax i take and more cbt i do then the stronger i will become ... i don't mind suffering if i knew it meant that i was making significant changes in my brain using just cbt, but i guess that's the problem right? nobody knows, i even asked my psychiatrist what lexapro is doing for me or if even lexapro could be causing some of my anxiety and she said the only way to tell is by trying less of it and see what happens, so psychiatry is helpful but it's also a young and inexact science that isn't at the knowledge of treating things like diabetes, it's still alot of inference and we're all just the ones who have to take the chances and hopefully get lucky in finding a med that works without alot of issues of side-effects or dependence
anyway, thanks again all, i'm going to keep tking xanax even if part of me is saying "NO don't do it, stick with the cbt and persevere and it will work out in the end and the more xanax you take then the more time it will take to learn to manage this anxiety on your own plus maybe you'll becom dependent on xanax and then you'll be stuck having to take it the rest of your life, why would you do that?!", but then also the reality of living life kicks in and i'm tired of just surviving right now and i need some relief because surviving isn't living and it doesn't make me happy
...sorry if i'm rambling, everyone please feel free to chime in
thanks
chess
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