Posted by TexasChic on September 9, 2005, at 19:22:26
In reply to Re: marijuana and antidepressants, posted by needesp on September 8, 2005, at 18:25:04
> I know his usage is freedom from negative rumination and escape and who am I or anyone to deny him relief!
In my opinion, that is a wonderful mindset. People can get so hung up on the fact that its illegal, and never think to stop and consider if it 'should' be illegal. I feel its just like prohibition, only its organic, and alcohol is man made. The fact that you can be happy that this gives him relief, without judging him, is so nice to hear. Now I'm not saying to give up now and leave it as is. Of course his life would be better if he could function without pot. But if there is no viable alternative for him at the moment, its the best you can do. What the doctors give him don't work. So he's self medicating. Its not uncommon (unfortunately).
> The other problem is that his OCD has caught onto the usage (its become a ritual which makes it a double bunger if he wants to try and stop (to see if he still feels bad)i.e. dependence on MJ and OCD dependence on the ritual of using MJ
I also have OCD, although mildly (my therapist says I have some 'OCD qualities'). OCD is basically an anxiety condition taken to the extreme. I have a tendency, when stressed at work, to line up all the icons on my computer until they're perfectly symetrical. It somehow gives me relief. I guess it makes me feel in control of something. Recently I''ve been told that it's being said about me that all I do is move my icons around all day (someone obviously saw me doing it). Its hard, because people don't understand. They think I'm goofing off, when really I'm enabling myself to get through the day.
> Thankyou, I feel so helpless/useless at times, I want to take his suffering away but all I can do is support and keep hope alive. My biggest mistake is seeing him worry about something, knowing that he knows that I know he is concerned and then talking about it with him! Its a catch 22 situation (This just sends his OCD through the roof!) Thats why I have come to this board.
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Get help whereever you can. You can't do this alone. If you aren't seeing a therapist, I think you should. You don't have to be the troubled one to benefit from it.I wish you luck. I know you are doing the absolute best you can, and that is all you can do.
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