Posted by xanablu on August 2, 2005, at 23:44:17
In reply to Re: Might a stimulant help? » xanablu, posted by ed_uk on July 30, 2005, at 3:09:37
hi Ed~
I was amazed when I mentioned to my pdoc that 4 15mg. Dex spansules and 1-4 Dexstrost mg.IR daily, as needed (he gave me elbow room to adjust within these very generous parameters, and I am 5' 4" tall, weighing in at 124-126lbs.) could not keep me upright and mobile. He thusly handed me something that looked like a credit card. -how- cute, I thought.
{My husband was completely furious w/me for being ill-we married when I b/c pregnant, and he didn't really believe it, anyway, b/c if I was on meds, I shd. be WELL, right? That's the only reason I mentioned my problem, at all, to my p-doc. Because I knew that the previous 5 yrs. had been grueling & my resources were totally depleted...I needed a LONG introspective rest-not to mention I was also on 375mgs. of Effexor, which I had tried a few years earlier & it had been a TOTAL knock- out drug for me. I had tried it previously under under my g.p. and it made me sleep some-20-odd hrs. a day. Not good. My g.p. took me off it after 10 days. I did not yet have the ADD dx, therefore no stimulus for -any- awareness/cognition.]
Anyway, when I examined this little 'gift card' and I realized it was for 120 Desoxyn 5mg.{pharmaceutical methamphetamine) immediate release, well, I must say, I nearly fell thru the floor!!! And, it was -freebies- SHEESH! I remember p-doc calmly saying, w/perhaps a small wry smile, 'See if these don't make you jump off that couch,'. I remained serene and kindly thanked him.
When I handed -the card- to my very opened-minded pharmacist, he simply smiled wanly,
promptly filled it, (in 'drive thru' I might add) and handed the Rx to me w/a 'Have a good day'. I just shook my head in amazement and drove away, free and clear.Unfortunately, the Dexosyn it did nothing extraordinary for me.
I believe the simple fact was that NO DRUG cd. have stimulated me thru that my rather uncommon 375mg. daily effexor haze (don't most most people complain of Eff. being TOO stimulating all by itself?}. But I was experiencing such deep grief and depression from the loss of my parents, 14 months apart, I think maybe I needed that effexor for 9 months. I needed to cocoon within myself, process my grief, and let time pass. Time and Eff. did help me a great deal in healing that wound, and now, when I think of, or speak of my darling parents, it is always with pride, honor & joy--not with uncontrollable weeping.The stimulation factor of Dexosyn vs. brand name Dextrostat IR seemed the same, yet I find Dexedrine spansules 15mg. with the Dexstrostat 5mg. the most comfortable fit for me. The Desoxyn felt a bit harsh. And, the Dex. spansules do last about 11-12 hrs for me. I feel the rather primitive '2nd' release of the spansules around 6 hrs. after early a.m. dosing almost regular as clockwork, and I welcome it. I usually take my 2nd. clonazepam and 2nd propanolol and another 15mg. spansule at that time. Well, actually, I take the clono and propo then, and the Dexedrine about 30" later. That little 2nd release dex spansule chest flutter gives my ADD/easily distracted mind just the reminder it needs, that, as Nurse Ratchet wd. say, it's "Medication time, medication time everyone, medication time." Ah, the 'Cuckoo's Nest, haven't been there yet, but who knows what lies in my future. Hopefully not that.
I did not gain the courage to admit my depression, or whatever, until, I unexpectedly, gave birth, at 40, and I knew I could no longer 'fake it'. I had long ago decided that I was not 'well' enuf to care for a child, when I had already had problems simply maintaining myself! Also, caring for my parents during my child's 1st 5 years meant I HAD to put myself in the hands of the med'l profession. It was so frightening--but,after 5 yrs. I did get the correct DX. Plus, my child is thriving 8 yrs. later and my parents are at peace, and I have hope for a real future these days, even tho I'll soon be 50.
AND, I will staunchly defend a life on meds (if they are working) to no life at all, for the rest of my born days. And, I am so very thankful that adult ADD has actually and (only recently) become in some areas of the world an accepted and aggressively treated diagnosis. I do believe that it is my core disorder, and the other problems appeared due to the fact that it went un-dx'd for 35 yrs.
Sorry for the monologue. There was more, but, my paragraph placement was so confused, I deleted it!
Thank God, huh?Hope u r well~xanablu
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