Posted by cockeyed on August 1, 2005, at 23:33:58
today my t told me that I should get a 2nd op. on whether or wht my condition is in. I've been diagnosed as Bipolar II but she suspects that when I start feeling "nomal" I'm considered manic. trouble is, I suspect that when I'm normal, I'm a little bit nuts: like to have fun, boogie, that sort of crap.
But I'm confused re drugs. I'm taking tranxene and, sometimes, less lately, gabepentin. also 40 mgs. prozac, daily. Trouble is this drug shell game is starting to ...well, confuse me. So I think I'll get a second opinion. I very much like being manic, but screw the depression. If you've been depressed you know what i mean. Right now I'm up and down....self-medicating with vodka. But how long does he shell game go on. And what happens if I say f*ck it, civilly of course, and decide to do what does okay by me...but not my family. So I'm drug shopping. I know vodka works for a while but I'm well behind he learning curve on the latest drugs for BPII. Also I question whether I'm bipolar. I suspect I'm grimly depressive and once in a while emerge into a real world that is not filled with pri-mordial menace.
So, any drug solutions. I've decided to see a 2nd pdoc to get a better fic on where I might be on the nut spectrum.. In the meantime I'll hit some vodka and start working out more...and take my regular dose of meds. Oh what fun, cockeyed.
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