Posted by 4WD on July 31, 2005, at 22:22:31
In reply to Re: Going to doctor tomorrow, posted by linkadge on July 31, 2005, at 20:20:00
> Well, I am still alive. Just so confused. Why is it so hard to treat depression without turning yourself into somebody you don't recognize?
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> The pills take so much away from me, I don't know what is right and what is wrong.
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> Linkadge
>I bet you spend a lot of time obsessively thinking about meds and different meds and different combinations of meds. I have to stop myself from that or I'll drive myself crazy. I think about all the drugs I've tried (and I've been on meds since 1986) and try to figure out whidch one was better and which more tolerable and how one might be made more tolerable or more effective and before I know it, I feel like none of them will work or none of them is really tolerable and I want to give up.
The thing that is helping me right now is that I have started going to a new pdoc and I feel I was led to him. I have decided to trust him, take the med he rxed and not try to evaluate efficacy or side effects every five minutes.
I know this isn't an option for you since you don't like/trust your doctor. I think it is so important you find a doctor you trust and who will trust your input and your instincts about what has helped you before. If you are constantly second guessing yourself you truly can make everything so much worse. No med will work if I sit and convince myself it won't work. I"m not saying that's what you are doing - it's just what I do.
I think you ought to decide which med was most effective/most tolerable or, based on your research, which med is most likely to help you. Then move whatever mountain you have to to get to a GP and get a script. Take it for a month before evaluating how it's working. Try not to think about it while you're waiting to see.
Easier said than done. I'm on about day three of this policy and we'll see how it works for me. I hope the very best for you, Linkadge. I want you to get well.
Marsha
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