Posted by linkadge on July 12, 2005, at 15:44:04
In reply to Re: sinking » linkadge, posted by SLS on July 11, 2005, at 21:35:55
I have never thrown that idea out the window, but I don't have highs. I really and honestly have no highs at all. My mother is bipolar and I've seen highs before.
I do ok, then *boom* some sort of panic strikes that lasts for hours, then all of these images and picutures of times of fairure, feelings of being trapped, they are so overwhelming that all I can think about it suicide. They vanish, and I seem to return to feeling normal. I don't feel bipolar, I feel extrordinarily emotionally frail. Under the right circumstances I can get by with no meds, but even small changes in the environment are enought to make me feel out of control. When I was young there was really no mother. Mother was a robot, so I feel that I have to be very self sufficant. If things get out of control, that seems like the only way I can help myself.
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